disortation on numb v. 5.2 *blink* my minds in a million places plus one. i want to stop working forever and never go back to school just because i like to sleep late damnit. and cant i have that one thing? just one? i skipped out on more class today. because i have no attention span.. even with all these ideas that im in love with i cant sit in that studio for more than an hour without having to go and find human life. the crayons dont talk anymore! so we went shopping instead, because thats the answer right? because we're girls. and because girls need japanese jugs that when you look at them make you think of glugging.. glug glug glug.. and what was i really learning at school anyways? that people are fragile? that if i try hard enough i can capture my feeble feelings into some thin paper stuck together with love? im always behind. i cant even concentrate on writing this and im supposed to make paper people feel? gah. i never called my professor today.. that was the one thing i promised myself id do today.. so that i get in less trouble next week. but i cant call now. cause its 1:30am. and when youre a teacher and hear 'call recieved at 1:36am' on your voicemail you think things. things about what these students you teach are on at 1 in the morning that makes them think about a call they forgot. does it really matter? not one bit. because i should be thawed out any day now.. and then i can have real feelings again. but until then.. ill just dream. * |