she can see. well well well.. its saturaday.. and as the boy put it so perfectly this morning.. the smoke has cleared. the clouds have moved out of my mind and i feel like i can think.. and see.. and everything. i actually feel good. wow. its almost new to me. although i have to go to work in half an hour which undoubtedly may dampen my mood.. itll be ok.. becuase i say so. it will be ok. and maybe i spent the morning talking to a boy online that i think is amazing, but trapped inside himself too . maybe we talked and maybe we can learn to be alive again together. who knows. anythings possible right? oh yeah. and while i was talking to him i typed in some old entries.. i seem to write things when they happen into my little journal..and they never make it on here..so i thought id add them now.. so maybe the pieces of my life will make some more sense to people other than me.. theres still more gaps..and no cast. but all in good time. all we have is time. * |