ghost friendship. Subj: Re: im still out here .. Date: 11/22/2001 12:00:42 AM Eastern Standard Time From: [email protected] (Lynette M) im still here but not fer loooong.... i would have mailed but i thought id wait and see how long it would take you to do it ferst. 4 months atleast... when i didn't recieve a happy birthday e mail i was a little upset... so i thought id wait and wait and wait and wait and here you are... but you don't send me flowers anymore...:) so happy belated birthday beeatch! so where the hell are you guys living now? im buying a house and moving to athol... don't ask.. its north of worcester in the mountains where i belong... far far away... hehehe i haven;t checked my e mail in like a month basically ever since this whole buying a house thing started... blah.. dont ever do it, its fuckin hell... anyhoo i was lookin up mamaki, ya know that little tatoo we share... her element is water, she stands for compassion and her byname is peculiar... kinda fitting, eh? well it made me think of you so i decided to make one last attempt at checking my e mail to see if you'd written within the last month, and low and behold there was deadkyttn...alas... talk to you soon now that i have yer number... *goddess2* two updates in one night... huh. i just got this letter from lynette.. i didnt really feel like digging my pre thanksgiving depression any deeper.. but why the hell not right? why the fuck not. especially since i dont know why.. why that letter bothered me.. or why i even think about that friendship anymore or why i cant just have a new one with her..its more of my mom saying to make new traditions. its all the same thing. new traditions. new friendships. ugh. but then it seems so empty.. it all comes down to her choosing psycho boy that shes buying a house with over our friendship..and the back of my mind cant let that go. that someone i cared so much about.. that i shared so much with would choose a stupid guy instead. *sigh* and now theyre getting a house.. wee fucking hoo.. im sure their bmw will look great in the driveway too. i guess her job as pizza girl payed off.. or slave to him payed off.. who knows. im being assholish. because im sad. and i dont have her friendship anymore.. and its likely ill never have that again. ill have an empty pretend facsimilie of a friendship.. just like the pretend family dinner tomorrow. i really really should sleep before who knows what. my bed is my shield. |