fleeing dodge city. sometimes i just dont know.. its way too fucking early for this shit. ive been waking up every half hour since 5am. im not really sure why.. but any possible reason cant be good. at about 8:44 the phone rings.. as rule, i never answer the phone that early, becuase its usually work.. or the wrong number or someone wanting to know if i ever got my copy of the yellowpages.. so usually i let it ring and let the trusty voicemail robot lady pick it up.. but i think since id been waking up so much i figured.. why the hell not. note to self: no good news happens at 8:44am. so its my sister. i never did write more about her.. probably because shes been so much nicer.. hah. so she was planning on coming into the marvelous city today and hanging out with me on my wonderful day off..and apparently we're having a blizzard.. or hell a nor'easter as they seem to like to call it.. but my thoughts on snowstorms can wait. so shannons on the phone..and any call that starts with a growl isnt good. and apparently the moms has gone off the deep end again.. and is outside doing a thorough search of my sisters car. a search!? what the... so she goes on to tell me that she has no clue whats going on .. but that apparently my moms thinks somethings up. she never did trust me and shannon together. but all this seems way too uncalled for. my sister has changed so much.. maybe unbeknownst to my moms..who knows. lets take it back a little. last year.. or maybe it was the year before.. through last year.. my sister was your typical 16 or 17 year old.. she drank alot. alot for her.. everynight was a booze fest..and she was high even more.. she could outsmoke the best of them..and all during that time.. i think my moms knew what was going on, but never really did anything about it. she was so fed up that she just let it lie most of the time. she didnt bother with confrontation or anything.. unless shannon pissed me off and i turned into a bitch and used what i knew was going on against her. hah. then my mom would think about it for a millisecond. ive mentioned this before. that shows exactly what i mean. my mom would manipulate what i said to avoid confrontation with my sister. all this because my families specialty is avoidance. but i digress. so so shannon did her thing..and grew out of it.. or passed it on to me. hah. up until the past coulple years i would do any other drug you put on my plate.. but smoke something.. naaah. haha. somehow i morphed into the hippie. but anyways. shannon grew out of it.. or smartened up or something and for awhile now.. at least half a year shes pretty much not drank at all.. and cut down the smoking to like once a week.. which for a former pothead is pretty huge. so this is now. shes 18. right. shes legally free. shes changed so much. i dont know how my mom cant see it. my sister gave up her shitty friends who were just using her. she stays home and reads books! hah. but seriously, thats what she does. she doesnt party anymore really... so for my mom to suddenly be searching her car. its laughable.. but at the same time so insane. besides the fact that shannon is 18..and the car is hers. the moms hasnt payed a dime for my sisters car. she had some weird bargain with my aunt to get it.. so my mom has no right to even be looking in the window.. so it was almost 9am and theres my sister on the phone with me, irate that my mom is insane. shannons taking the early train over now. i wish my mom could see what shes doing. i wish she could see how hard my sister is trying to be better. how much better she really is. back then if she heard my mom was searching her car there would have been a huge fight..maybe some broken things.. now, shannon calls me..and we talk about it and growl and laugh at my moms insanity. i wish my mom would give her credit. *sigh* my moms not crazy all the time. but thats ow crazy people work. it just happens suddenly. *snap* we have a theory though, my sister and i. when my mom and her boyfriend are overly loving and getting along, they are like a tag team. they gang up on her, or me, or whoevers living there at the time. sometimes the team changes, and my mom will be inlove with me and shannon and hate her boyfriend. or she'll love shannon and use her to get information about me. my moms sly like that. she knows how to butter you up.. and before you know it.. secrets fly. one of the last things my sister told me on the phone.. 'mom and the boyfriend are getting along extremely well'.. all you can do is watch out. and get the hell outta dodge. |