pathetic art somedays i just dont know about friends.. last night i called up jamie asking her if she could please please come help me with my project tonight.. i dont neccessarily need tons of help.. its mixed media ..its what i do.. but jamie and i have a certain energy together when creating..and the ideas come faster..and things are more fun with friends.. so i asked her to come up tonight.. and she said she didnt know.. but she thought so..but i knew in the back of my head the whole time she never would.. grrrrr. shes so like that.. so fucking lazy.. so i dont know.. not inconsiderate.. but sure not thoughtful.. so i call her and im like.. are you coming? and shes like oh.. well.. no.. and im like.. so whatre you doing thats so big tonight? and shes like.. well patty got back late...and we have to go get film.. for her pictures tomorrow.. hrm. where you going to get film? what was that? milford? 20 minutes away? you cant come here and help me because you had all day to go get film and didnt..and its practically on your way here!? it just hurts thats all. not that she blew me off again.. but that id jump in a heartbeat to help her. ive modeled for more of her pictures.. hung out in more graveyards.. and kissed x boyfriends so she could get the perfect shot.. so she could make her slideshow.. or whatever other photography project she had. id be there in a minute to help her out no matter what i had to juggle or shift around to make time.. because shes my friend.. because i love making art with her.. but no. jamie would rather take all night to go get film a measly 20 minutes away. that one task will take her all night.. and she cant possibly help me. *sigh* thanks a bunch. and the thing that makes me hate myself more.. is that she could ask me to help her tomorrow.. and my sorry ass would. i dont know whos more pathetic. |